so tired, tired, tired

Tired of my thoughts battering me, hurting me, challenging me

tired of violence and victims and sadness

tired of war and fighting and insidious behaviour

tired of dashed expectations and disappointment

tired of hopefulness unrequited, no hope

tired of lies and childhood secrets, shattered lives

tired, so tired of the narrative of trauma

tired of the sun shining brightly and the moon shining nightly

just tired